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Bloom, my love.

Monday, April 23, 2018


When everything wakes up - here I am dying again.
There's no spring without blossoms, let's be honest. Instagram, facebook, youtube, the world is full of blooming flowers so here's my piece.
I still remember when I had no strength to leave home to take photos two years ago - I felt like I was missing a lot. Too much.
I'm so sick of the present, my doctor will hear all about it.

Here, take the poem that was born a few days ago.

I feel I'm dying again tonight. 
Not the first or the last time. 
I keep dying so often,
It feels like a cold or a flu. 

Dying but never really dead,
What is even the point of that?
It's like crawling through the thorns to the finish line,
But never really reaching it. 

I don't want to die for good. 
There's so much I have to see. 
It just keeps happening. 
I'm a wounded roe,
Who cannot reach the woods. 



"Seven devils all around you, seven devils in your house."

Monday, April 16, 2018


I'm quiet lately. I can only say that I went outside with my camera in ages. Enjoy.

"You're breaking hearts again."

Sunday, April 8, 2018


A friend sent me her favorite playlist. Almost 200 songs from our high school times.
It took me 12 years back in time to days I was young, innocent, spontaneous, free and... happy. I can say, I was happy then.
All these songs literally dragged me through all years, one by one, to push me forward and back all over again.
I cried, I laughed and I went through my old diaries - it was an emotional journey for a Thursday afternoon.
I got out of bed an 8:00 p.m. absolutely drained and very sad. But most of all - I could breathe deep. I let all my feelings leave my chest and go away. I needed that so much.
I realized how much clutter I had inside. Do you know this feeling?
(...)
My family asks me if my computer is broken - I play only one song all over again. It’s Remedy by 30 seconds to mars. I don’t know what in it makes me soft inside but I really like the way it feels. Okay, I know what makes me feel like that - but let’s act like I’m an adult and leave this topic.
(...)
I feel that it’s important to mention that I have some auto destructive behaviors again. I’m trying to keep it as low as I can but it’s tougher every day.
Fortunately the weather gives me some sun as a distraction. It feels so great to wear my old, jeans jacket that remembers many, many crazy years. And these years were not mine.
(...)
I’ve seen the new Tomb Rider movie. I wish I haven’t really.

Every time I try to let you go, 
I realize how much of you is still left in me, 
cause I'm losing you for ages 
and it's still too much left. 


Monday, April 23, 2018

Bloom, my love.


When everything wakes up - here I am dying again.
There's no spring without blossoms, let's be honest. Instagram, facebook, youtube, the world is full of blooming flowers so here's my piece.
I still remember when I had no strength to leave home to take photos two years ago - I felt like I was missing a lot. Too much.
I'm so sick of the present, my doctor will hear all about it.

Here, take the poem that was born a few days ago.

I feel I'm dying again tonight. 
Not the first or the last time. 
I keep dying so often,
It feels like a cold or a flu. 

Dying but never really dead,
What is even the point of that?
It's like crawling through the thorns to the finish line,
But never really reaching it. 

I don't want to die for good. 
There's so much I have to see. 
It just keeps happening. 
I'm a wounded roe,
Who cannot reach the woods. 



Monday, April 16, 2018

"Seven devils all around you, seven devils in your house."


I'm quiet lately. I can only say that I went outside with my camera in ages. Enjoy.

Sunday, April 8, 2018

"You're breaking hearts again."


A friend sent me her favorite playlist. Almost 200 songs from our high school times.
It took me 12 years back in time to days I was young, innocent, spontaneous, free and... happy. I can say, I was happy then.
All these songs literally dragged me through all years, one by one, to push me forward and back all over again.
I cried, I laughed and I went through my old diaries - it was an emotional journey for a Thursday afternoon.
I got out of bed an 8:00 p.m. absolutely drained and very sad. But most of all - I could breathe deep. I let all my feelings leave my chest and go away. I needed that so much.
I realized how much clutter I had inside. Do you know this feeling?
(...)
My family asks me if my computer is broken - I play only one song all over again. It’s Remedy by 30 seconds to mars. I don’t know what in it makes me soft inside but I really like the way it feels. Okay, I know what makes me feel like that - but let’s act like I’m an adult and leave this topic.
(...)
I feel that it’s important to mention that I have some auto destructive behaviors again. I’m trying to keep it as low as I can but it’s tougher every day.
Fortunately the weather gives me some sun as a distraction. It feels so great to wear my old, jeans jacket that remembers many, many crazy years. And these years were not mine.
(...)
I’ve seen the new Tomb Rider movie. I wish I haven’t really.

Every time I try to let you go, 
I realize how much of you is still left in me, 
cause I'm losing you for ages 
and it's still too much left. 


Morrigan.
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